Day 44 of Quarantine

Life has gone topsy-turvy and I don’t even know what day it is or what month we are in. I just count the days from the last time I reported to the office. It’s been 44 days. Wow! 44 days. Our lives have definitely changed. We are all in a stand still and we don’t know when we will go back to normal or if we will ever be back to normal.

There are moments wherein I feel scared of the unknown. The news has brought nothing but dread,(honestly speaking) and socmed brought nothing but the worst in most people. There is too much going on both positive and negative that it has become overwhelming for all of us. I still believe in the good among people and I know that is also what we want. I guess, it’s a matter of being conscious and choosing goodness.

Let us all be reminded of the bigger purpose. Also, let us be reminded that God is always watching over us. I hope and pray that we all come out of this experience as better version of ourselves.

Wisdom at the time of Corona

2020 has only just begun and it almost feels like the year is almost over. The Philippines has gone through a lot over the past three months that it seems like we are ready to welcome 2021. From the Taal Volcano eruption to African Swine Flu (ASF) outbreak and now the Corona Virus Pandemic. It seems that the end of this phase is far from over and in times like these we need to hold on to our faith and in the belief that this too shall pass.

March started with the dawn of a possibility of a Metro Manila Lockdown. I was not sure how it will turn out but I was hopeful that it is not as bad as what the media is portraying it to be. The threat of COVID-19 hitting the country is slowly becoming possible and when the report of the first community acquired infection was reported, I knew that life will never be the same. An exaggeration for some, but if you live with two senior citizens (both high risk for infection) and you know its time to hit the high road.

Currently, I am on Day 13 of quarantine and I am bored AF. However, I believe that by staying home, not only do I keep myself away from the virus but also my parents will have higher chances of not getting infected. Those are enough reasons for me to keep my bored butt at home. It ain’t easy but for the greater good we should learn to abide by the rules.

In the midst of the Enhanced Community Quarantine (ECQ), there are a lot of things to be thankful for. First, people are reminded of God’s strength. Also, people are reminded that He will not let his people down. Bend your knees and pray to Him. Second, nature is healing. Based on ABS CBN news, there has been a 180% decrease in PM2.5 since the quarantine started (click link). Mother Nature needs a breather and it finally got the much needed break. Third, family time. In a fast-paced world like ours we often times forget to spent time with the people we value the most. Now, we are in our home sharing meals, spending time and just sharing stories as we wait for this pandemic to subside. Fourth, Bayanihan is seen everywhere. Many organizations and individuals have come together to help our frontliners and less fortunate filipinos. Fifth, ECQ taught us patience. Yesterday, I waited in line for 4 hours to get in the grocery store and waited for another 2.5 hours to check out. I must say we were all tired but not a single person was angry. We all waited patiently for our turn and followed the rules of the establishment. Sometimes its easy to be angry and frustrated with the situation but I am proud to say that we were all adults playing with our phones while waiting (lol). Lastly, the dedication of our frontliners. It is not easy to help people when you have a high percentage of getting infected. Our frontliners are not just the health care professionals, volunteers, police and military but also the cashiers, bagger boys, guards, back office employees, etc. who go to work every day to help our country to survive this pandemic. There are more things to be thankful for and I am sure this list can go on and on. We should do our share by staying indoors and washing our hands.

If you want to help our frontliners, please don’t hesitate to visit for the list of organizations who need your help in this time of great need. Also, there are other individuals who are also doing their share of fundraising events/efforts for our frontliners and less fortunate kababayans.

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Let’s all remain positive! Follow social distancing and please wash your hands. Stay at home people!

Crazy Love

Only two things can reveal life’s great secrets: suffering and love. – Paulo Coelho, Aleph

I believe that I love passionately that sometimes I lose control of what I think and feel. There are moments wherein I feel that I get too caught up with my worries that I lose focus. It is a turmoil that I can’t seem to get a hold of. Love has definitely given me my highest highs and lowest lows. In times like these, I want to just be free of all the overthinking and craziness that I put myself through. Even the simplest of posts can drive me to a lot of thinking. Not good, Mia – not good.

I want to choose loving but with freedom. Freedom from overthinking and just being at the moment. There is magic in the smallest of moments and in the smallest of things. When I look back to the moments that matter, I feel the warmth. I just don’t want to waste the magic by overthinking or wasting it by entertaining negative thoughts.

I don’t want to lose the passion I have for life and for love. More so, I don’t want to lose myself. 

What to do, what to do.

I just completed a six week Comms training class and I must say it was such a challenging feat. During the course of six weeks, I have learned a lot about life, love, courage, hate, and resiliency. When I found out the demographics of my class it felt like a challenge to me. I knew that it won’t be easy and my fee-linial side will have to go on overdrive so I can catch up. Part of our sessions are free speech activities. I love doing free speech because I get to listen to different stories of my trainees. My class would always joke that my free speech activities remind them of their recollection/retreat sessions.

During these free speech sessions, one trainee shared that she was not sure of what she wants to do with her life. It resonated to me and I came to a realization that I have the same dilemma. At my very young age of 32, it seems that I am not so sure of what I want to do. I am not really sure who I want to become and I feel like I am still going with the flow of life. For a moment, I felt like panicking then I calmed myself down – I still have a class to complete. lol! It was good to actually say it out loud to validate that we are not alone in feeling lost.

I realized it’s normal to feel lost sometimes. I believe that life has a lot of surprises to offer and feeling like I know everything loses the magic of living. I strongly believe, that I am at the right moment and at the right time. Growing up, I feel like life is about ticking every single box (in order) in a long list of To-dos. To feel that life is unpredictable eases the tension of always completing something. Also, the more that I felt that life can be lived one step at a time made me enjoy things more. The pressure was released and I start to look forward to what lies ahead.

Life ain’t easy but it makes you love every breath and every move that you make. It’s okay to feel lost, it’s okay to feel defeated and it’s okay to feel confused. All that matters is you learn from every single thing that happens to you. Live and love your life – its the only one you’ve got.

I am feeling, 32!

I have recently turned 32. If you ask me, being 32 is nothing special because it only feels like an extension of being 31. The past few days have been quite a rollercoaster for me. I have not felt something like this before and I am scared as hell on where this leads. However, I have never been this happy and vulnerable at the same time. I have made a few discoveries about myself. There are still a lot of things I need to learn and experience before I can fully understand life.

One early Saturday morning I chanced upon an episode of Boy Abunda’s The Bottomline and he was talking to three motivational speakers and I must say, it is true that everything happens for a reason. They were talking about success, life, love, and purpose. The guests were Vince Golangco, Ada Cuaresma and MR Speaks. While I was watching the episode, it was like the Philharmonic Orchestra was playing. Every single point they shared hit me and it actually got me a bit teary-eyed. It was amazing hearing their words of wisdom and it was like hitting me one by one. It was a moment of realization. It was an Aha! moment.

I started asking myself, what is my purpose. Being at this point in my life, have I found what I really wanted to do. Am I still aimlessly threading the waters of life? Honestly, I think it is something that I should really sort out for myself. As what Boy Abunda said, listen to the co-host within. There is a silent voice within that is trying to find its way out. I am excited, nervous, and anxious of what lies ahead. I am not sure if I am ready to face it all; however, I know that having faith that I can make it through will definitely lead me to success.

Then there was a question about success. How do we measure success? Should we see success as relative? Watching The Bottomline episode made me realize that success should depend on how you define what makes you successful. I started reflecting on my life and how I see success, if I had my life run on all that is monetary – I will never see the beauty of the connections I have made. I didn’t even realize how much I have grown and done until I reflected on how I started. It was good to look back and it was also good to see how much people have touched my life and vice versa. I think that for me is my definition of success. More than money and all the recognitions I got, seeing the quality of relationships I have made – it was all worth it.

I believe that I have just seen the tip of the iceberg. There is still a lot more to see, feel, hear, and do. How I get there, I don’t know. I’ll cross the freakin’ bridge when I get there.